I was incredibly overwhelmed especially with every online thing still fucking up and then I have three more responsibilities being heaped on me. But...I got the online stuff fixed. I got my story finished (thanks to evil_little_dog for a lightning fast beta read.


Tomorrow I need to see the surgeon. I'm vaguely worried.

I had such a terrible dreams over the last two days Let me tell you about them.

Dream One - I was at a either an all inclusive resort or on a cruise (it seemed to be both). It started with me leaning on a wall, looking out over the surf. It was time to get up to eat. Behind me where two of my flash drives and my inhaler (for reasons, god knows what). I couldn't grab them up so my parents left me there. My friends did too (I couldn't tell who it was).

And the anxiety began. It was all buffet but I couldn't find plates. I got distracted by two cousins of mine who kept talking to me even though it was obvious I wanted to go eat. By the way both of these women are dead (and have been for years) I manage to get away from them and head to the far wall because I see huge crabs and lobster symbols on the wall. But when I get there there is nothing left. It's all smoked fish. Ew.

Then I go into the next room and I see a huge deli case but in it was sausages and other meats but it was all horse meat. and the horse's head was in there, two of them. One was named Kevin with he/him after it (the horse had pronouns, thanks now I can eat them).

Since I didn't want to eat horse I go to the next room that nothing but desserts but before i can have dessert for dinner evil_little_dog and silvrethorn come racing in, in horse costumes and destroy the table in protest over the horse meat (like they couldn't have done that to the horse room!)

I run away and try to get a plate. I am going running from room to room but all the plates are dirty or broken. I even think to go to the gift shop to buy a damn plate but by the time I find a plate ALL the food places are closed up and I have no dinner. I break down crying in the middle of the dinning room (as if you can't get room service at these places) and that's when I wake up.

Dream two (this morning) I'm in a car with Mom and evil_little_dog and we see an open house on a house for sale. ELD insists we stop even though there's no one at this place and I don't like the location. We go in and it's a mid century split level (exactly what I don't want). The two owners give me the creeps. I don't like anything about this place but Mom and ELD do. They keep poking around upstairs but I tell the owners I'm going downstairs to see if it's haunted and you know, to see if there are sins and broken foundations down there.

I am going over and over in my head reasons to get the hell out. The creep factor in the basement is off the charts and then the lights go out. I panic. I'm running everywhere, slamming into walls because it's a maze. I'm screaming I'm downstairs and I need help to get out. I slowly realize no one is coming to help and the owners aren't letting any of us out. I manage to find a room with a window and I climb out. The owners know I've escaped so I race together people on the street (as if I can run) and I'm acting like a threatening maniac hoping they'll call the cops because they didn't believe me I was being kidnapped. I woke up just as the cops got there. Did Mom and ELD live? Who knows.

it's music monday and we're doing music that inspires you. For the next month or so, let's do one song that inspires us to draw or write. If you're not a creative, share one song that's making you happy right now. I offer this one from Three Days Grace. HOW many characters of mine would this fit? Connor telling off Angel. Angel Dust telling off Henroin and Arackniss. Edward Elric giving it to Hohenheim. ANd that's just a few